Stuck

So… I haven’t been around, but I don’t need to tell you that, you already know that. Here’s the thing. I’m so incredibly stuck for blogging. And it all comes down to this whole anonymity thing. I’ve let my actual online personality and my blogging personality overlap too much. So now I feel too scared to blog because I really don’t know how to blog about certain things going on in my life, while not blogging about things that would open me wide and show (quite plainly) who I actually am.

See I started this blog anonymously for the specific purpose that I could blog about anything or anyone without hurting anybody. I want to be able to complain about my MIL or friends who I am finding frustrating without having to worry that they’re going to find it and be hurt (ok, so my MIL would never in a million years stumble across this blog, but other people in my life just might).  I’ve thought about just coming out and saying “hey, this is me” (A thought that excites me because then I could do things like post cute pics of Little Squirt), but then I think about the things I’ve said about Miss Stiles or my SIL, and the things I feel I might say one day, and then I think twice.

So I choose to remain anonymous, and leave this bit of internet as a safe place for me to talk about anything. But then I can’t really talk about anything because of the overlap that I have allowed to occur. People know things going on in my life, as my ‘real’ self, and I get scared about talking about them here . Scared that people will make the connection (if they haven’t already).

And so silence here and confusion and indecision in my head.

Sorry, this post is kind of a big mess that goes in circles… welcome to my thought process.

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4 responses to “Stuck

  1. i totally understand this… i feel the same way… since my brother found my blog….
    and a lot of shit has been happening with him and i can’t write about it in my blog either….
    you can password protect those things you don’t want anyone to stumble upon

  2. I did not realize that your brother had found your blog! I hope it didn’t cause too much grief!

    I know I can always password protect, but I’m not a fan of doing that, I have a feeling once I started half my posts would be protected because I’d be scared of hurting people lol

    • he didn’t say a word about all the negative things I said about him, because he knew that in a way I was right…. he did say however, about my engagement…. which he’s been forbidden to mention in front of my family…

      the problem is my SIL… I’ll send you and email through facebook… but you won’t believe a word I’m saying…..

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